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rebfish — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 01:16:55 +0000

i’m loving these sunny days. a little heat stroke at first while my body was adjusting can’t keep me from the joy of this weather. this is rebecca-weather. being able to wear a tank top to my morning classes gives me excitement enough to have little butterflies in my stomach.

sister and i took my waterproof camera case to the beach this afternoon for it’s first time in the ocean. it was freaking AMAZING! now i just gotta keep working on getting my shorts-tanline away. i’m afraid that lifeguarding last summer has left a permanent mark on my body with that ugly line.

say what?!

rebfish — Thu, 02 Apr 2009 06:48:57 +0000

rock a bob on the upper eastside!

Dark Was the Night

rebfish — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 21:18:53 +0000

i like it. very very much. [click on the image to be taken to the website]

sick day

rebfish — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 20:04:21 +0000

this is how my head feels today. like a foggy blur. last night i felt it creeping up on me, and i went to bed much earlier than normal to stop it in its tracks … but after an almost completely sleepness night of dreams about swimming laps and a michael cera stalker (i know, WHAT?) i woke up with a full blown cold straight from hell. it’s not just the sniffles and sneezes that are getting to me, it’s the tired, emotional, i-don’t-know-what-to-do-with-my-life part that’s killing me. every potential ounce of energy has been sucked out of my body, and it’s putting me in a sad mood. it’s making the simple day to day decisions and tasks seem impossible and life-threatening. dramatic, i know. i hate this little evil bug that has entered my body. i can’t even finish my thoughts today let alone finish the list of things i made for myself to accomplish this week. i want to just curl up in bed and read, sleep, drink tea, and watch mary-kate and ashley movies, but it’s sooo sunny that i know i’ll just feel depressed and wasteful of this monday. it looks like i just joined the club with the rest of the world who is sick right now. i don’t like this club. boo.

not even jason mesdick will be around to distract me tonight while he chooses (the wrong) girl to marry. but cesar millan never fails me! ok i have to go. i have a date with the dog whisperer i just decided.

the beloved polaroid.

rebfish — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 23:24:21 +0000

before the tow truck came to take away my crushed little car, i spent a good amount of time cleaning out all the nooks and crannies (camp friends, who does that remind you of….. Dennis!) of my car making sure not to forget anything that was important to me that i wanted to keep. somehow, i have no idea how … i left two of my favorite pictures in the world. one was a polaroid of nich and i from a few summers ago at twainhart lake, and the other was a pin with a picture of my sister when she was younger in her soccer uniform. when i realized a few days after my car had been towed that i had forgotten to get the pictures out, i was literally a little heart broken. like i could feel my heart hurting and i just felt crushed. to most people, it would not be a big deal at all. and i don’t like to let things like this bother me so much, but pictures mean more to me than i could possibly describe in words. especially polaroids, and pictures of anyone in my family from when they were younger. they are just so so incredibly special to me. i don’t need the pictures to keep the memories, but the actual photos are more valuable than anything else i own. i did my best to not let it get me down too much, because trust me i know there are MUCH greater things to worry and be sad about.

when i told nich about the lost polaroid of us, he was honestly just as disappointed … UNTIL, he realized he had taken a picture of it with his phone one day when he was in my car! not quite the same as the physical polaroid itself, but it really lifted my spirits.

it will always bug me that i spelled twainhart wrong. but whatever right? i realize the picture isn’t even that great, my scrunchy face, our orange skin and the blurry blur … but twainhart is one of my favorite places on this earth. and i remember being in that cabin on that day when we had just gotten back from the lake and taking this picture. this picture is perfect to me.

d’art photographie

rebfish — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 22:16:57 +0000

i think i may have found the newest addition to my top 3 favorite photographers. (NO ONE comes before erica, and no one ever will. and i can’t forget my loyalty to jasmine star.) d’art photographie definately just made the top 3. i found her site via pennyweight and like she said, i just can’t get enough of her beautiful pictures! here are a few of my faves …

i love this

rebfish — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 20:24:02 +0000

when i got home from class this morning i had this video in my inbox from my best friend. she told me to watch.cry.and love.

which i did. i hope you will too.

rebfish — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 08:12:00 +0000

i realize i haven’t blogged in ten years and i’m sorry. but that happens ok? blogging has seemed uncomfortable lately also. it’s weird to put thoughts in such a public area like the internet. but sometimes i love it, and i really love other peoples’ blogs… so for now i’ll keep it going. a lot has been happening lately, like, life stuff. you know those times when everything is really mellow and easy, and it’s nice for a while but then you forget how to live like a normal functioning human being? well that was fall of ’08 for me. winter ’09 … quite the opposite. It hasn’t been bad, it’s just been real and certainly eventful. A brief overview of the past two weeks (just two weeks because it’s too hard to recap any more than that at one time) …

i got in my first car crash and (most likely but not officially) totalled my car.

i got accepted into biola.

i went back to middle parting my hair.

i became completely obsessed with the bachelor.

i stopped eating gluten.

i fell in love with gluten-free mac n cheese.

i started school and am taking too many classes.

i’ve spent a crazy amount of time on craigslist looking for cars but then even more time cursing the insurance company in my mind for not telling me if my car is definately totalled or not.

i made a gluten free cake.

it was awesome.

had an amazing valentine’s day. (the first year that i chose not to be a hater of the holiday)

i’m still obsessed with mk&a.

i was in a fashion shoot with two of my favorite people.

erica and craig moved walking distance from me and i can’t believe how happy i am for them!

i do pilates now. booyah grandma.

i was a counselor at snow camp.

a massive tree fell in front of my house and on my mom’s rental car. which meant a highway patrol, fire truck, and a million PG&E trucks were on my street fixing it all day so i couldn’t go home. and we had no power.

ok done with the lists. i swear i get so weird when i write blogs. something triggers that loopiness in me the same way a bucket of candy at 1 am does to me. also it’s getting late and i’ve barely gotten any sleep all week.

side note: me and al want to go to new york city for spring break … i still desperately need a job.

here’s a picture from valentine’s day. cartwheels. of course. look at that form…

i’m sorry this blog was so weird. like i said before, i get in these phases where i’m really uncomfortable writing blogs that are in any way deep or personal. i have no idea who reads this thing, and to be honest that kinda creeps me out.

goodnight.

because of my boyfriend …

rebfish — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 07:55:09 +0000

i learn to love and appreciate certain things … discovery channel, chandler’s jokes, ridiculous home made music videos, saabs, ways to keep our planet from wasting away, and so much more. but something he loves even more than all those things is skateboarding. and because of that love comes skate videos, and this one outdoes them all. i really do love it. so here you go….

another video i love is this. by Oren Lavie. some of you might have seen it on the free people blog.

it’s ok if you don’t have the patience for two videos in one blog post. but at some point you should watch both, if you want to. they’re really great. i love when people make creative and unique videos. and i don’t love not being able to post stuff from vimeo on my blog!! for some reason it doesn’t work. lame mclamerson right?! or maybe i am just lame for not doing it right. hmm, either way … bummer.

turtle foam

rebfish — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 04:57:51 +0000

today the whitewater at the beach looked like little turtles floating on ice toward the ocean waves. the waves would crash on the shore, and the white water would join in small cantelope-sized clusters that moved back out to the sea. it made me laugh a little. the people passing me by were probably confused by my smile as i stared at the turtle foam, but i didn’t care. i’ve never noticed it like this. it made my day.

i wish a picture could show how great it was, but that won’t happen. try and watch for it next time you’re at the beach … i hope it makes you as happy as it made me.